baduy... but real =)

hay, the bug has bit me again.

i saw his previous posts in this site for bedans and boy, oh boy, though i haven't seen him for two months now, the feeling's still there! all fresh! =D

imagine, a 26-year oldie feelin so kilig. makes you wanna puke, ne? =) this is insane i know. if there is such a thing as second adolescence. this, probably, is mine.

he was, is, and perhaps, will be my dream guy. (puke some more, hehe) he epitomizes THE MAN. the one i have dreamt of, the one i have dedicated my poetry to for the five long years i have stayed in the jungle called san beda law, the man i wanted so badly to be mine...for keeps.

he is not that hunky type of guy that i would normally "desire."
he looks good. well, he was even tagged as their batch's hunk, okay.
he is the only guy i had admired with a wavy mane (he sports a "skinhead" 'do).
he is bespeckled. (and his eyes turn chinky whenever he takes off his glasses.)
he has broad shoulders and good enough built. (huggable, id say.)
he has this cutest sheepish smile that i rarely saw in my five years in beda.
(yes, he was suplado, at least to me, i guess.)
he has this deep manly voice that could send a thousand-decibeled shrill from any woman. (especially when you look into those eyes, piercing the lens of his 'two other eyes' and moreso, when you heard it from the earpiece of your phone.)
can you now picture how he looks?

let us go to the better side of the package.

he is one darn smart guy.
he graduated with a degree that was my second choice when i filled up the upcat application form.
we both came from the same university for our pre-law course.
he was a member of a reputable fraternity back in college.
(hehe,biased! akala ko i don't like fratmen?! hehe)
...
he graduated from beda law in four years. and take note, he had criminal law 2, as his only 'casualty.' he was that brilliant! mind you, we do not have summer classes pa nyan ha.
he was my superior in The Barrister, our official publication.
(honestly, i only decided to take the entrance exams for the school paper because of him.)
res ipsa loquitur, i know. just the same, i would like to emphasize that he is one helluva writer!!!
he writes really, really well.
the grammar. the choice of words. the sense of humor.
on top of that, he just doesn't write. he writes sensibly.
(although i have yet to see him produce a poem, hehe.)
it's a rarity for me to have found such a guy.

what's the catch?

he smokes. hahaha, darn! as if i care.
he is one loyal friend, and devoted boyfriend.
darn!
i was not the one he chose. that is the problem.
did i even come close to being an option?

i don't know what exactly happened back then in first year law. i am contented with the thought, that yeah, probably, he is not meant for me. (but god please, find someone like him. please!)

this must be due to an LSS caused by having watched sharon cuneta's ultimately excellent movie, bituing walang ningning , my favorite, hehe. what was the song? sana'y maghintay ang walang hanggan.

Sana'y Maghintay Ang Walang Hanggan

Doon ka, dito ako
Hindi magkatagpo
Tawag ko’y di marinig bat kay layo mo
Lapitan man ay di mo matanaw
Bingi’t bulag sa akin ay walang pakiramdam
Sayang na pagmamahal
Paano ng pag-ibig kong walang hanggan

Sanay maghintay ang walang hanggan
Hanggang makilala mo ako ang iyong mahal
Baka ko matutuhan kita’y kalimutan
Baka pangako ko’y dumating sa kailanman
Sanay maghintay ang walang hanggan
Sana ang iyong paglingap ay muli kong matikman
Subalit kong paglimot ay di mapigilan
Alalahanin mong kay tagal kitang hinintay

Narito ang puso kong inilaan sayo
Pagod na nanginginig baka magtampo
Naghihintay ang labi kong uhaw
Handog nito’y ligayang di mapapantayan
Sayang na pagmamahal
Parang hangin lamang sa iyo’y nagdaan

...whew!
now, will you please stop laughing?! =)