thank you [033006immortalized]

it was an answered prayer.

7:45 pm, the mass had ended. i felt so lost that only a priest could probably send me back to my senses. sure, i wanted to have a confession - but having somebody listen to my worries, fears and doubts was my primary concern. i recited the sins i have committed and finally, admitted to the priest as well that i would like to apologize to God for not letting go of whatever that bothers my mind, for feeling so afraid to loosen the grip and let Him do the works, for being so hesitant to surrender. then the priest told me that i need not be afraid. and that, if i fail, i should not regret anything. [yup, those were his exact words.] that made me shiver even more.

then i knelt down as i walked out of the confessional box. there were a few people left in the chapel. i let loose, i cried so hard because of the great fear that has engulfed me.

then i felt my mobile phone vibrated. i took a peek and saw it was jes. she works for SC justice nazario and i asked her to call me as soon as she gets the results. things went a bit blurred then. all i could remember was jes shouting, "we passed!"

the first two lines i uttered, "what have i done to deserve this Lord? how can I ever repay You?"

He was so good to me. i know myself best - and i know that i have so less to offer. i am certain of my limitations. and all i know is that, it was Him who did everything. hindi po ako ang magaling. honest. Siya lahat yun. let us just say that i was just physically present then for four sundays - and everything else came from Him.

i thank YOU Lord. my fortress. my staunch supporter. my friend.
i hope to give back everything that you have given me. all of these are Yours. this is Thy miracle, Thy victory.
congratulations Lord. i love You.

p.s. of course, Mama Mary was also there for me [Mother of Perpetual Help, Our Lady of Manaoag, Our Lady of Mt. Carmel and the Our Lady of Miraculous Medal], who, upon my pangungulit has obtained a wonderful miracle in my favor. and also, my heavenly friends, St. Clare [UP days pa lang, you have not failed me ever], St. Therese of the Child Jesus, St. Philomena, St. Mary Gorretti, St. Jude, St. Expeditus, St. Peregrine, Child Jesus of Prague, Holy Nazarene, Holy Angels and my dear Guardian Angel, Rece. mahal na mahal ko po kayo. thank you for bearing with my kakulitan and interceding for me.

p.p.s. who wouldn't forget GOD's GIFTS??? friends who supported you all the way and prayed with you...
alphabetically arranged po [according sa phone ko, hehe] =D
alisher jolejole, allan carreon, arvin gavino, atty. carrie sianghio [thanks so much buddy!], atty. dang montemayor-abas, atty. efren dizon, atty. jean pamittan [si boss], atty. jp refuerzo, atty. laida pua, atty. marie pahate, atty. monique almeida [my mentor], atty. myra bengan, atty. pam mercado, atty. ped faytaren, atty. raffy palma, atty. richmond lee, blue macalinao, brandon domingo, bumbo cruz, cha lasan, che mercado, cheng parenas [sa september, see u!], cleo [ping! thank u talaga] and brian basco,dra.weng ladero, dred velasco [all the way from dubai], aase ebreo, ate eloisa sajul, ethel [my DEAREST ethel. mwah! ill move heaven and earth sa turn mo!], evonie cajanding, jackie bautista, jenny casimiro, atty. jessica vitug [yey! congrats], joan callos, jong rodio, mary anne miranda [ang mas kabado pa sa akin], milen remolacio [hugot], miss dijan, miss laguador, nina abania [buddy!!!], pambie herrera [salamat po], pam chavez [buddy ulit!], pochie, raymond jamin, rica tugadi [double buddy! hehe, beda at sedlex], roselyn anciano, roxanne feliciano[my prayer warrior], thea albaytar, tita thelma lasan, yette galang [OO yette! isa ka talagang anghel, salamat sa yo at sa pagtitiwala], maya, the snc family. sa dami ng tao na nag-pray for me, di ba mabibingi talaga si Lord?

FINALLY many thanks to daddy and mommy, to whom i offer this wonderful present from God. i only intend to make you happy and my only goal in life is to let you experience so many great things. to my siblings, my sister in law, our angel at home, my niece clarisse and my bebe clarence, who has fervently included me in his night prayers. also to my relatives, ay dami na nito, hehe. special mention to my tita baby, tita oreng and my cousin engr. jeff realis. =) ay salamat po.

IT WAS A DAY I WILL SURELY CHERISH. A DAY I'VE LEARNED THAT TRUSTING GOD IS WORTH EVERYTHING. A DAY WHEN I HAVE EXPERIENCED THAT TRULY, GOD'S LOVE FOR ME IS SOMETHING I MUSTN'T QUESTION AT ALL. AFTER ALL, WHO IN HIS RIGHT MIND WOULD'VE GIVEN HIS ONLY SON, OR ALLOWED HIMSELF TO BE THE SACRIFICIAL LAMB - FOR ME - JUST TO MANIFEST HIS LOVE??? only God, only Jesus.