petrified

i think a spell had just been cast unto me. petrificus totalus! as it goes in harry potter.

seriously, i feel so numb, so scared and so lost right now. yeah, i am guilty of having committed two crimes here - reading an email of a classmate and visiting a site that i should not even consider of thinking during this phase in my life. and yep, i think the critical stage has arrived.

before any of you gets whacko as i am now, let me explain what this is about. well, as any usual evening, i jumped on the pc to check my mail and do some yearbook thingies. as i checked my mail, i saw a classmate's mail (to our batch's yahoo group) regarding "the release". i was hesitant to open it. title/subject pa lang, nangalos na tuhod ko. but i went on. feeling darna eh.

it was written there that our dean had a talk with the chairman and the latter said that the examiners are about to finish checking the booklets and that probably, the results will be out by second or third week of march.

that leaves me with fewer days to contemplate, to pray, to fight.

and oh, the site which i visited was the previous one which i mentioned. there is this forum about the results. it didn't help. it merely confirmed the message emailed to us by a classmate.

i am so scared. i don't know exactly what to do.